2.09.2007
8:58 PM
It was a super suck ass day at school today, almost nothing went right. Is it wrong to want to have a decent mean with my friends once in a while to celebrate their birthdays? Apparently NOBODY appreciates the effort I put in. I found a place which I knew everyone would enjoy, but when I told them it was a surprise NO ONE seemed even bothered to be excited.
FINE!
You know what. NO MORE SUPRISES. Justina was the only one who actually appreciated the effort I put in. But NO MORE. I won’t do it for any of my friends in my secondary school life again, BECAUSE CLEARLY THEY DO NOT NEED IT OR WANT IT. I just want to make this clear once and for all. I won’t celebrate birthdays outside with any of my friends anymore. UNLESS, they have planned it fully and have a specific TIME AND PLACE to meet. I just get so God damned pissed when something I had planned so thoroughly fall apart. I had so many things planned for Wenna’s Birthday, but I guess it ain’t happening no more. No cake, no gift no song singing NOTHING! Some may think I’m over reacting, but how would you feel if you haven’t had a decent cooked meal in weeks, nothing but instant noodles and cereal. Not anything horrible but nothing really proper, and when the chance finally comes to go out and enjoy a decent meal with your best friends and wanting to celebrate your best friends birthday and they just throw all your efforts aside. Do they even APPRECIATE A DAMN THING YOU DO FOR THEM? No……. Not being happy with the place you chose, your friends also doesn’t even seem all that keen on going. Bloody hell. EVEN the birthday girl herself wasn’t ALL TOO EXCITED about it. I think she was more excited about meeting freaking ‘Xiao Zhu’ tomorrow or some kind of shit like that. DAMN IT. I’m so fucking sick and tired of plans getting screwed up. I HATE IT! Judge me for all I care, say whatever you want, call me petty and over reactive. Right now, I DON”T GIVE A SHIT. HATE me for all I Fucking care. But. Thanks for letting me know that I’m not appreciated.
I was really looking forward to going out today, after so many tests during the week, I needed and wanted a break, I was anticipating how much fun we would have. I even planned what I was going to wear, and matching shoes. Sigh. I guess I got so pissed off because I just wanted today to go the way I had planned, but along that road of making everybody go along with me everything got so bloody screwed up. I’m just so PISSED.
OH GREAT! My period just came. Just what I needed. It’s just another day in PARADISE. Since its like this, I’m going to blame some of my over reactions to PMS. Yes, that’s it. GREAT!
So guess what I had for dinner today? YES! A bowl of cereal, half an orange and some grapes. I wasn’t too hungry, I guess you could say I got full from being angry.
-As emotions stir-
-And tears flow-
-My life is written-
-Without its secrets-
-This is Sharolyn as you know her.-
-Roaming freely like a Ghost.-
-Picking up the pieces of her life like picking up muffin crumbs dropped.-